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Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 6:44 AM
I made it clear to you.
Zaki.. I just don't wanna argue with you any further as i just want my life to be alone without anyone else. You might not wanna believe this but it's the real truth that was made by me. I failed to bring you happiness for the past three months and here we are, made our ways into different direction of life. I wasn't there for you when you need me the most. I never focus my full attention on you when i was playing computer. I can't be able to give what you want in life. I made you angry all the time without putting an effort to comfort you back again. Never listen to what you said. I'm sorry. I choose to leave you is not for a silly reasons. But somehow, i made this decision is for my happiness sake. Up till now, you will never understand my situation. In what way should i explained it to you? I didn't mean to make you suffered this way but i just want you to understand what i want and i want you to stop loving me. That's easy, right? I don't wanna give you high hopes on me. Cause i know the consequences if i were to do so. Let's not brood everything over and let's not fight anymore. I'm sick of this game. No explanation needed and yeah, i just want you to moved one with your new chapter of life with someone else who is much better than me. Find someone that suits your taste and i bet she's the lucky one who can brighten up your life everyday. I just need to straighten out my problems which hardly to get solved and yeah, please don't trouble me anymore. Okay, since you want to be forgiven, i will accept your apology in a sincere manner and after this, please let me go completely from your life and leave me alone. I don't wanna show you my egoistic side of me and i don't want you to be my number one enemy cause you don't suits to become one. But if you insists of being one, that's it. This will be game over between us. I mean my words well. I just wanna apologized to you what had happened earlier and especially to you mom. I treat her just like my biological mom. Never once i intend to hurt her feelings. I gave her my full respect and she deserves it. She sacrificed herself by coming over to Singapore General Hospital, just to visit me during i was admitted due to my bad injuries. I really loves her just like i love my own mother. I'm really sorry. We can still remaining as friends if you want to but if you asked me about getting back together, I'm sorry, i just couldn't commit myself into relationship anymore. I'm not being prepared enough in facing all the hardships together and I'm not ready to have one at this moment. My mentality is still thinking of enjoying my nightlife as i used to do, another words, back to the old days before i met you. I missed it badly. I'm back on feet again, meeting with my old girlfriends & boyfriends. They are the best of everything, makes me go crazy with joy and laughter. Yes, I'm still young at 19 and i believe at this time of age, people still do wanna enjoyed themselves first before it's too late to do so. Right?? Not only that, i still do wanna upgrade my studies into a higher level of education, which is in diploma level. Easy for me to get a better job and also to have a better future with someone whom i loved so much in few years time. Read this one. I bet this one really works for you, for some understanding bout friends. I have many close guy friends but that doesn't mean I'm a whore. They are all friends I treasure cause I believe sometimes guys understand girls better. But of course, I won't put aside my true girlfriends cause they've been there since day one too. And if my boyfriend can't accept this fact, then don't be mine cause I rather lose a boyfriend than lose my precious friends. True friendships are hard to earn indeed.Please. Understand and leave me alone, forever. I wanna be alone.
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Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 6:44 AM
I made it clear to you.
Zaki.. I just don't wanna argue with you any further as i just want my life to be alone without anyone else. You might not wanna believe this but it's the real truth that was made by me. I failed to bring you happiness for the past three months and here we are, made our ways into different direction of life. I wasn't there for you when you need me the most. I never focus my full attention on you when i was playing computer. I can't be able to give what you want in life. I made you angry all the time without putting an effort to comfort you back again. Never listen to what you said. I'm sorry. I choose to leave you is not for a silly reasons. But somehow, i made this decision is for my happiness sake. Up till now, you will never understand my situation. In what way should i explained it to you? I didn't mean to make you suffered this way but i just want you to understand what i want and i want you to stop loving me. That's easy, right? I don't wanna give you high hopes on me. Cause i know the consequences if i were to do so. Let's not brood everything over and let's not fight anymore. I'm sick of this game. No explanation needed and yeah, i just want you to moved one with your new chapter of life with someone else who is much better than me. Find someone that suits your taste and i bet she's the lucky one who can brighten up your life everyday. I just need to straighten out my problems which hardly to get solved and yeah, please don't trouble me anymore. Okay, since you want to be forgiven, i will accept your apology in a sincere manner and after this, please let me go completely from your life and leave me alone. I don't wanna show you my egoistic side of me and i don't want you to be my number one enemy cause you don't suits to become one. But if you insists of being one, that's it. This will be game over between us. I mean my words well. I just wanna apologized to you what had happened earlier and especially to you mom. I treat her just like my biological mom. Never once i intend to hurt her feelings. I gave her my full respect and she deserves it. She sacrificed herself by coming over to Singapore General Hospital, just to visit me during i was admitted due to my bad injuries. I really loves her just like i love my own mother. I'm really sorry. We can still remaining as friends if you want to but if you asked me about getting back together, I'm sorry, i just couldn't commit myself into relationship anymore. I'm not being prepared enough in facing all the hardships together and I'm not ready to have one at this moment. My mentality is still thinking of enjoying my nightlife as i used to do, another words, back to the old days before i met you. I missed it badly. I'm back on feet again, meeting with my old girlfriends & boyfriends. They are the best of everything, makes me go crazy with joy and laughter. Yes, I'm still young at 19 and i believe at this time of age, people still do wanna enjoyed themselves first before it's too late to do so. Right?? Not only that, i still do wanna upgrade my studies into a higher level of education, which is in diploma level. Easy for me to get a better job and also to have a better future with someone whom i loved so much in few years time. Read this one. I bet this one really works for you, for some understanding bout friends. I have many close guy friends but that doesn't mean I'm a whore. They are all friends I treasure cause I believe sometimes guys understand girls better. But of course, I won't put aside my true girlfriends cause they've been there since day one too. And if my boyfriend can't accept this fact, then don't be mine cause I rather lose a boyfriend than lose my precious friends. True friendships are hard to earn indeed.Please. Understand and leave me alone, forever. I wanna be alone.
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NISSY
Nissy Haylen.
Nineteen.
04081991.
Mixed.
Happily Single.
Enjoying singlehood life right now.
Friendly + Talkative.
Cheerful + Easygoing.
Graduated.
07052009.
ITE Simei College East.
Nitec in Beauty Therapy.
January Intake 2008.
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